Me on the Viennese Ferris Wheel.
Self-Discovery in Vienna.
This may sound rather cliched, but it's rather true. Last weekend (October 18th-20th), I took a solo trip to Vienna, and it almost didn't happen. I cannot even begin to put into words how glad I am that it did happen now. The reason that I mention that this was a self-discovery trip is because that's really what it turned out to be. I learned a lot of important things about myself on this trip... And also a lot about making assumptions about things before trying them, and being a "Debbie Downer."At first, I asked a few of the other CIEE American students if they wanted to go to Vienna. Many said yes, but already had plans, had gone in the past, or some other reason. I had made good friends with two Scottish girls while here, their names are Fiona and Ayla, respectively. Both of them are awesome and I just get along really well with both. Shout out to you two, by the way! ^_^ Originally, I was going to go to Vienna with both of them. However, both had to back out for reasons beyond either of their control, so suddenly, five days before my desired departure date for Vienna, I found myself without a travel partner, and not finding any of my fellow Americans to go with, I was feeling rather down in the dumps, and I began having upon returning from Transylvania what one could certainly classify as a mini-meltdown.
Now, before any of you start giving me puzzled looks, allow me to defend myself. I am a major extrovert, like, majorly, okay? I mean, I'm not the stereotypical extrovert (Cue tumblr: PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY), but I thrive in environments with lots of people and big cities. I'm not a fan of doing things alone. When I was younger, I did, but things changed because of some personal events in my life and I really honestly detest spending lots of time alone in solitude and doing things on my own. I enjoy being in the company of people. Due to not living on campus for the first 2 years at ASU and going to a rather cliquey high school, a lot of that company was online, but I still desired company and spoke to people online to fill the void I felt (And still feel at times) in real life. You'll almost never see me curled up with a book, collecting my thoughts. I love a good book, but really it's not my thing. And I sure as hell had never heard of anyone traveling alone by choice. Well, except those loners who have no friends, that is.
Now, I apologize to anyone I offended. I do NOT think people traveling alone are loners. However, at the time of this mini-meltdown, that was the rhetoric I was unabashedly spouting to the choir. As my roommates and a couple of the other Americans walk in on me swearing up a storm in my room with the door open, they ask me what's bothering me, and I explain what's bothering me, and that I had never heard of anyone traveling alone, except for losers and people with no friends, so it must mean I'm a loser and have no friends. Well, that's not exactly what was said, but that was the general message I was preaching off my never-traveled-alone-before soapbox. This perplexes those in my room, and for good reason. My roommate then explains to me that he's traveled alone before and loved it, and that people do that all the time and it's not uncommon at all. I'm simultaneously messaging Ayla profusely on Facebook writing out my frustrations, and she's telling me the same thing. After continued talks with the other guys in the dorm, I kind of slowly realize how absolutely ridiculous and irrational I was sounding, took a few deep breaths, and calmed down, but I still wasn't sure if I would book my train ticket to Vienna or not.
The next day, I continue to vacillate endlessly on going to Vienna or not, and relay the events to my friend, Kristin. She replies by saying "You're seriously, seriously an extrovert, aren't you?" half giggling. The answer is yes. As she puts it, I thrive on people. I continued vacillating, but after a great, head-clearing conversation with Gaby, who is another friend of mine here in this group, along with a conversation minutes later with my best friend, Ashley, over Facebook, convinced me to grab the bull by the horns and go to Vienna. Because they both made me realize something: I would regret not going to Vienna more than going and hating it, because then I'd wonder forever and ever what could've been on that trip and how fun/not fun it may have been if I did go. So, still with some reservations, I bit my lip and booked my tickets for Vienna, Austria.
I want to once again thank everyone who I spoke to over those 24 hours who helped me calm down, refocus, and realize that I needed to put things in perspective and grab the bull by the horns and, basically, for lack of a better word, "do me", and do what I want, and not wait for others. If someone comes along for the ride, great. But really...I'm here to go to school and also to have my own adventure. What adventure is it if I just wait for others to follow? If I want something, I need to go for it. When I took off for Budapest August the 28th...There were two destinations on my "Must-see-them" list...Vienna and Prague. I only have a finite amount of time here, so I seized the opportunity.
Now, that that is out of the way...Maybe I should get to actually going to Vienna. I took off in the early hours of October 18th from Budapest Keleti Railway Station on a Railjet train to Vienna. It took only a matter of minutes for me to relish traveling alone. I got to the train station that morning, and suddenly realized that I had three days in a foreign country to do whatever I wanted, when I wanted. And a chance to meet new people is never a bad thing. This was the first time I had ever traveled alone. Suddenly, it felt empowering. I was going to a country where I knew no one and barely spoke the language, and I was going alone. Instead of nervous, I was ecstatic.
The excursion into Vienna started on a high note and never looked back. At first there was some confusion with my train ticket, but my ticket was good for any train for three days, so I was off to Vienna. I sat in an unreserved seat as the train was two hours before my reserved seat, and I wanted to get to Vienna ASAP, and I got a seat next to a fellow Hungarian-speaking American named Julia. She fled Hungary in '56 during the Revolution and carved a decent life for herself working in the oil business. We had a very long conversation, sharing some of our travel stories and our pasts. She even was nice enough to take a mom-like role on the train and bought me a bottle of mineral water and said it was on her. We spoke almost the entire three hour train ride into Vienna, and I told her I was traveling alone for the first time. We both mentioned that it was a pleasure to meet the other, and a realization dawned on me. Traveling alone, if anything, is amazing because you get to make bonds with people, sometimes really close bonds with people, and get to really know someone, with full knowledge that you are never going to see this person again. It is extremely bittersweet, but it is also really cool to get to know someone super well in a microsecond of time like that. That person is a part of your life for the few hours you're in close proximity, and then they're gone, gone, gone. But those people leave a mark on your life, and you never forget that person.
Immediately upon arriving into Vienna I was greeted with an absolutely stunning city. And I just felt like I was in a dream. Here I was, an American alone on the streets of beautiful Vienna. The weather was perfect, and I was free to do whatever I wanted for three days. No holds bars, no one to pull me in another direction. Vienna was my stomping grounds for three days. I still had two hours before I could check into my Hostel...And I had a very heavy backpack on my bag, so what was I going to do? Treat myself to a Viennese lunch, of course.
Sachertorte. Need I say more? No. I don't. ^__^
I didn't go in until the next day...But the view of the beautiful palace, with the clouds in the background, in the cold Viennese evening, were well worth the picturesque 20-minute walk and subsequent getting lost three times and mistaking the technological museum for it well worth it.
That night there was a party at the Wombats City Hostel I was staying at, and I got to really get to know my Hostel-Mates, two British guys from the UK who wasn't even aware that the US government shut down. Naturally, pre-party I went on a long, one-hour profanity laced rant against the incompetency of the Tea Party faction of the US Government. The UK guys were rather happy to hear my views. It was a nice intellectual conversation to have, then we went down to the bar, found a group of girls from New Zealand, and went and chatted with them. And, I got rather drunk. Three cocktails and three shots. I slept like a rock that night, despite sleeping on a bunk bed not even remotely long enough for 6-foot-5 me. I bid my British Hostel-mates adieu and safe travels in the morning, and went on my way. I only remember one of their names, but the conversations we had that night I will take with me for a long time.
Then the next day truly capped my entire experience. Although it was forbidden to take pictures inside Schonbrunn (This time I bought my ticket for 17 Euros and spent a good two hours there), it was absolutely stunning to view the riches the Habsburgs once lived in. And the views of the city from Schonbrunn weren't exactly shabby, either. I basically spent a day there, took the walk back (instead of the tram), and sat back down in my Hostel bedroom, hoping to greet my new Hostel-mates. They weren't there, however, having just come in themselves, they were probably out exploring all Vienna had to offer, themselves. Realizing the night was young, I heard about this Ferris Wheel in Vienna where you could get a stunning view of Vienna while riding in a cabin to the top. It was something I couldn't pass up, and took about a 1-hour train ride from Wien-Westbanhof to the end of the suburban railway line (S-Bahn) to go to the Viennese Ferris Wheel. Known in German as the Wiener Reisenrad. The view was stunning, even under the shroud of night. I could only imagine what it looked like in the daylight...
Vienna at night. ~
I felt so elated and so happy getting to just take in that view. But what really put the cap on Vienna was what happened after I returned to my hotel room that night. I went back down to the Wombar (The bar at the Hostel), and there were these British friends just having drinks. I go sit down by them, and one of the girls in the group, her name was Becky, beautiful, blonde, and friendly, struck up a two-hour conversation with me. It felt really nice to meet someone and just talk to them about life and share stories. I will never see her again, of course, but two hours talking to a pretty girl in Vienna is a pretty good cap off to the weekend, no?
The next day I prepared to head home and checked out of my Hostel, but had a few more hours to explore Vienna, so I took a one-hour Hop-on-Hop-Off tour and also took a guided tour of the world-famous Viennese Operahouse. (Must see this! I won't post pictures, simply because you need to see this for yourself.)
I came home to Budapest feeling on absolute cloud nine. I had an absolute blast and my entire outlook on traveling solo and what that means has changed. Traveling solo does not mean you're a loner, or reclusive, or antisocial, it in fact oftentimes means you're the opposite! It means you want to see the world, you're tired of waiting for someone else to take the leap for you, and you want to meet fellow travelers backpacking like you. All these things I did on this trip, and this will truly be a highlight of my life for years to come. I entered Vienna unsure of myself and lonely, and I left it completely fulfilled and overjoyed. Sometimes you must truly seize life by the horns and grab it.
I know I'll never forget that I did, if only for four months out of my life. Or maybe even only for an unforgettable Viennese weekend.